https://videopress.com/v/9XTJF7H2?preloadContent=metadata You’re a woman like me You been through some things and seen some things you should have never had to see You’re a woman like me Grieved and bereaved Who lost her baby, her parent, her spouse or her fiancé to be Trying to find her new normal and live abundantly You might even … Continue reading Standing Tall After Loss & Grief. You’re a Woman Like Me.
Having to hold you in my heart and not my hands Eventually understanding that might be the safest place for you to be ‘You were too precious for this world’ Or maybe I tell myself that for comfort Your first year in heaven and my mothers 7th They say 7 is a lucky number So … Continue reading 1 year on without my baby|A Mother’s Poem
I know I have to get to her. I feel the pull in my gut to leave where I am. I know she is safe and I know she is not far. So I stand up and I go looking for her. I realise, I’m in my house and I start to walk down the … Continue reading Will I Only See My Children in My Dreams?
I’m Sorry. Baby I see you’re hurting. I see you’re in pain. Your eyes have lost their sparkle. The smile in your cheeks have gone. Our baby girl has died and we’re left holding each other’s broken hearts. We have to leave our baby girl Charlotte behind. Leave the good times and the expectations behind. … Continue reading ‘He Put His Grief On Hold To Save Me’
I lay here. Still. Broken into a million pieces The silence is loud. I hear the house creak, the cars driving by outside, the choppiness of my breath and the steady strong beat of my heart deep in my ears. I hear a clock ticking but can’t tell you where’s it’s coming from. I’m in … Continue reading The Wait To Die- Suicidal Thoughts From A Mother of a Stillborn.
I’m scared. My brain feels fried like the eggs I ate that morning. I don’t know what I’m doing. I have no idea what these people want me to do. They have told me numerous times and I still don’t know what I am supposed to do. I’m scared. The room is getting bigger and … Continue reading The Birth Of My Stillborn Charlotte
I would like to start in a place of gratitude. I’m grateful to my body. I’m grateful for being able to move, breathe, see, think, feel, hear. I’m grateful to my body for all the wonderful things it does to keep me alive, healthy and the person I am. I’m grateful. ~19 weeks pregnant~ I … Continue reading Where’s My SnapBack?
There was an earthquake. Our worlds collided and combined. Synergy. Cosmic. Destiny. This world I love. This world I trust and want to do everything with including create mini worlds. Mini worlds that will turn in to great and fantastic worlds. You are our mini world. There was an earthquake. Infinity on the Richter scale. … Continue reading A Letter To My Stillborn
Mother’s Day I wake up on this day with a tightness in my stomach. Thoughts come flooding in and I instantly want to go back to sleep. Drown out the noise. I'm already exhausted. I want this day over with. I don't feel ready to face another Mother's day without my mum. Another year where … Continue reading Mother To A Stillborn?
So here I am 5 weeks postpartum and I’m working out in a gym. I’m not feeding my baby or watching her wake up or desperately trying to get some sleep because she's had a restless night. I’m here in the gym desperately trying to get my body back. This is not a choice I … Continue reading “Sorry, Your Baby Has Died”.